Chapter one

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I've been contemplating what I should write, and what my first post is going to be. The first impression. Maybe what I'm writing is ending up deep in cyberspace, where nobody will read or know any of this, maybe this is a message to no one or everyone. I don't know, I wasn't sure what energy I was going for. It’s hard deciding between a motivating post where I can give you that tingly feeling you get when you see something motivating (that makes you get your life together in the middle of the night) or if I was going to start with something a bit more touching and deep.

Then I thought, does anyone even read blogs anymore? Does anyone even read in general? With TikTok, Instagram and Snapchat taking over where content is more personal and blogging being replaced with vlogging. Reading can feel ancient. Watching content creators use their voice, appearance and energy to reach out to their audiences makes it more personal. Their mannerism and presence can give a unique feeling and be enough to capture you, despite the actual topic. Meanwhile when it comes to blogs the subject is often what captures you. I also believe that the increase of fast paced content has made people impatient and the habit of quick scrolling makes it hard to keep people around and create an audience.                                        

So if you're still reading by now, Thank you.

I have to admit, I have never been a big fan of reading. I couldn't stay focused and lost concentration easily. Maybe nothing really captured me and what I read wasn't relatable enough. When it came to writing it often felt overwhelming for me. So much I wanted to say, so many ideas and thoughts I've wanted to share but putting it into writing felt so long. I didn't know how to present my thoughts in the perfect way and usually I only wrote something if it was for work or school. I had to stick to someone else's rules and subjects which made me feel limited and bored (then the spelling and grammar that took 110 years to correct).

I always thought, if I was going to create something, especially something anyone is going to see or read it needs to be so capturing that losing focus would be impossible. It led to an impossible level of perfectionism which always delayed me to the point of giving up. I wished I could automatically put my thoughts and points onto a piece of paper perfectly. So here I am, trying to write everything down… word for word… perfectly.

I hope this blog becomes a platform where I can reach out to you beyond just a quick video. A place we can grow, learn and discuss our experiences so that neither of us stay alone in the journey of life. And when it comes to me and all the things that make me unique, I hope you can use your imagination. Whether I'm a girl in her 20s trying to figure her life out or a woman in her 40s chasing her dreams after a divorce or even in her 30s looking for her next chapter in life. It doesn't matter because I am who you want me to be.

There are a lot of things I can't tell you and usually people write about themselves and what you can expect from their blog or the reason they started blogging, but those are all stories for later, and trust me you won't be disappointed. But what I can tell you is that from this moment on, every sentence being written and every post being published is a part of a love letter not only to you, but to myself. To build a safe place and to be free. Don't get me wrong I'm not going to paint myself as an outcast cause I’ve been far from it my whole life. The center of attention never scared me but I want to create a place where I am at peace and hopefully I can share that with you.

And if one day my last post gets published I hope what you have taken from me is nothing but motivation, comfort and joy. So that when the full story comes out, you'll remember me just the way I am right now.

I am Miss V, and this is the beginning of my story...what's yours gonna be like? 

XOXO 

Yours truly,

Miss V